I really think I'm losing my passion for running this blog. There's just so much (or so little) going on in my life that I just never have time for it anymore. I have about a hundred things to think about everyday and honestly, my blog just isn't that big of a priority anymore. I've been pretty down lately and I honestly haven't been doing much. I waste my days away by gaming or accessively reading BuzzFeed for hours on end. I wish I still have that spark a few years ago when all I could think about was writing and running this space. I wonder if this is me growing up and being really boring. I don't wanna be a boring old person!
I don't know what's gotten into me but I'm gonna write about the boyf. He works everyday and gets home at 8pm. I miss spending time with him and I feel as if my days don't start till he gets back. But he mostly falls asleep by 10pm (and I understand that, can't blame him). And then there's me staying up all night trying to get some sleep for another boring day of activities. I don't really look forward to waking up by myself with nothing to do for the day. It's kinda depressing. I really wish I lived in the city. I mean sometimes I'm fine with doing nothing in my room but then there are days where I just breakdown cause I am so bored and I have nothing to distract myself with.
If I should say so myself, I think I've pretty much lost some part of me this year. I'm no longer as outgoing as I used to be, no longer as.. carefree. As of now, all I can think about is organising my work placement and finishing up my last assignment for the year. I don't have anything to get me through the day. I mean there's the 'I look forward to getting my coffee in the morning' thing but even then I have to now steer clear of that so I can go to fucking sleep at night.
I'm frustrated. I'm terribly, terribly frustrated and I have zero idea what to do. And just in case this isn't what you came here for.. here's some pictures I took in Chester.
Ugh I need to stop being so moody and anxious.