Hey guys, I suppose the title says it all for today's blog post. Perhaps it's just another one of those days where I feel extra useless and talentless but I've been having a lot of these thoughts lately. First of all, I've been back in the UK for a couple of weeks now. Third year classes starts next week so yay for that. I feel like I've taken enough time off of blogging and am looking forward to being busy again. This past summer has made me feel somewhat sad even though I have loved my absence from blogging. I actually really enjoyed appreciating every moment and just living in it but that has made me feel utterly useless. Like I'm not doing enough. Like I'm not doing more than I think I should. And today is just one of those extra stupid days where I feel even worse.
Honestly, I'm so scared about finishing uni. I don't feel like I can be an actual, working adult. I don't wanna grow up. I see everyone struggling so badly and that scares me. It's not like I don't know what I want to do but it's more like.. I am super scared of even trying. And on another note, my motion sickness has been pretty bad these few days. It doesn't help with my emotional state because I just feel so bad but I'm trying. The boyfriend has been great lately. Like OMG he made me the best bacon and cheese sandwich when I wasn't feeling great. I love you.
Oh freshers week has been okay - I feel too old sometimes - but okay. I went out a couple of times and it was pretty cool. Silent disco was the bomb.
Yeah, I totally didn't get the monochrome memo. I suppose I match Reiss's hair color?
I've been missing home a lot this time. I just can't stop missing the little twins and all the Asian food. I teared up over a drone-filmed video of Hong Kong the other day. The boyfriend called me cute but I was actually homesick and feeling a little shitty. I mean, the video was spectacular. Hong Kong is just so amazingly beautiful. Here's the video that made me cry:
It's really cold right now and I'm eating M&Ms, rewatching the video above. Aaaaaand I feel shittier. Again.
I just can't shake this feeling *referring to title*.
Okay, I'm heading back to watching The Voice. Till next time guys.