It's been a whirlwind. I wish that something could've been done to take this week away. I am lost. I am alone. I am afraid. I wish I could be happier or stronger. Nothing appeals to me. I would very much like to lay in bed and sleep. I don't want to have thoughts, I don't want to do anything. I miss feeling alive though. I'd give anything just to feel better. I am jealous at whoever that's happy, at ease, or just anyone who would have someone beside them no matter the time. I have fought and I've tried, yet it's never enough . Someday I wish I would forget. At times, I wish I wasn't me. It's always painful knowing everyone has someone else to be happy with. Why am I always left hanging? *sigh* One of these days I will crack. I stop myself from having thoughts like these all the time but I can't help it today. Because I have wandered from places to places alone for the past 3 hours. Not a single text from anyone, not a single person to talk to. I can't help but to feel pathetic. To anyone of you who takes the time to read this, well.. I thank you.
And guess what.. I just missed my station to go home. Well, its true.. there's always a first.