I think about you so much and I'm sure I've hoped for too much. That's why I'm so upset. I've tried, I really did. But you just kept treating me colder. Drawing more distance. I wish someday, not now even, but someday, you'll finally believe how much I've tried. I'm so tired. I've put up with everything, willingly. My feelings remains, yours..has changed.
Monday, November 26
Complicated ties; I don't know what's right or what's wrong. I'm pretty sure I'm doing things recklessly. I'm so torn on the inside. I wish you knew just how much. You keep doing this to me. Telling me off when things are okay. Crushing on my hopes every time I have some. I don't know what to say anymore. You won't believe in anything. As if I've lied about everything I've ever said. And that hurts me so much. I won't bother telling you how many times I've cried. I'm trying to think straight. I wanna be okay.